I sort of just accept that I have to go with the current. Just like you said you are doing I bit the bullet recently and have been exclusively building my sites/apps with GatsbyJS and NetlifyCMS. I am also using Netlify to host my properties and I am enjoying it a bit more than when I was building sites on unmanaged virtual private servers running CentOS using free WordPress themes. Those days aren't that far behind me but it seems like it was so long ago due to the technology moving so quickly. I believe that this sort of thing is here to stay and that we have to be comfortable with constantly learning new things or we will definitely become obsolete. I hope that you find your way back and settle into a stack that you really enjoy. On a slightly different tip I have been slowly learning to program in Go and you can do some awesome web development using the standard Go libraries, so perhaps that could be a salvation. I feel you though, and at this point I can only go with the flow and hope for the best.