Learning more about what I always thought would be impossible to understand.
Having an overwhelmingly self-deprecating attitude and sitting alone in my apartment for decades - I've learned the skill of muscling though the confusion and frustration involved in trying to grasp well-established logic, structure and design.
Sometimes it gets the best of me, and I move onto something that I feel is more productive and rewarding - but, at least my opinion has been validated through hands-on experience (as well as similar experiences in the past, that I'd discover were trendy crap shoots encouraged by worthless agencies.)
However...
During that educational process, I'll occasionally find a game-changer - whether that title is set by me or the industry we work within - and I continue to chase the proverbial 'golden egg' with the goal of eventually teaching others about my experiences and skills learned.