Your post reminds me of a book that I’ve been reading since 2012/13 - No Escuses, by Brian Tracy. One of my favorite quotes of the book says “Hold yourself responsible for a higher standard than everyone else expects of you. Never excuse yourself. Never pity yourself. Be a hard master to yourself and be lenient to everybody else.”
This post hit home today. Definitely needing to reacesa priorities and be true to myself! Thank you for writing and hope that you feel better soon!