Thanks for sharing your story ❤️ It's amazingly brave and I'm so glad you are part of the tech community.
I totally understand you, I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for 15 years now (since 16 years old), the possibility of creating great things by coding kept me alive, it was my happy place and still is.
I guess I'm happy that more people are sharing their stories to help destigmatize the topic. Mental health is important, nothing to be ashamed of, it's something to be proud of.
If you are somebody in tech that is going through s* stuff while reading this, you can and will get better, and you will totally be able to shine your own way in Tech.
Cheers Mate.